The Simple life

Have you ever wondered, when did life starts to be so complicated? No matter what a bitch life was, when you were in your teens, it was straight forward and simple. Well at least for me it was.
As you hit your mid 20s, you kind of hit your quarter life and life takes a turn for disaster. Suddenly, you start worrying about your job, family, your faith and especially relationships.
You hear alot about failed and failing marriages. Infidelity of either spouse in marriage, and mind you unfaithfulness in marriage is not the sole privilege of man anymore. Does it not make you wonder why bother with marriage in the first place?
I would like to believe that the constitution of marriage means something and not really just a piece of legal binding certificate. Or just a sad excuse for either spouse to get paid alimony. (Think Britney and what's that loser's name? Kevin loserline or something something)
Being in church half my life has its pros and cons. A part of me still believes in the goodness of men. but a bigger part of me has already learnt the sadness of men. (aka reality, ain't it a bloody, F***ing bitch that bites you in your arse when you least expected)
Maybe that's the reason i still go to church. I find solace, a glimmer of hope perhaps. People in church still tries to be nice most of the time. Especially in my church, u can still see people expecting goodness from one another. They have not given up hoping and expecting from men or from God. Most importantly, they have not given up hope on themselves.
Hope is such a powerful thing. It keeps you alive because it keeps you wanting to be alive. I remember once years ago when i was representing my school for a Swiss-Singapore youth forum, one of the presentations that we had to make was:"What we wanted out of life?" Mine was pure simplicity, I wanted a beautiful life, one with a beautiful wife and beautiful children living in a beautiful house.
I thought this was the simple life, something easy to aim for. I thought wrong. Keep the faith they say, keep the faith.

I dedicate this post to Mr and Mrs Yip

On their wedding night, i just realise i could have said something nice about the both of them since i have the privilege of knowing both of them pretty well.
The first time i got to know Selina was during youth camp 1995. She was in my group and i was the leader with Jess my A.L (All of this sounds so juvenile on hindsight) She was quiet and demure on first impression, notice the use of past tense "was". Hmmm... come think of it, most of the church girls i know "were" quiet and demure when i first knew them. All a bloody facade i say! Kudos to those who don't hide their true self, like Brucellina for example, she never hides her love for Bruce Lee and wants to be called Brucellina, nice name i say.(Disclaimer: This is the view of the altered ego of the writer and does not represent his view when he is conscious.)
After that youth camp, we went on to the same Bible study group, cell group and even music ministry. Thats how i got to know her true self, i mean real self.... her faithfulness is really commendable.
I remember seeing Jeremy in church sometimes after service. There was this period he had this ridiculous skin head, I was wondering if he was a fan of Hitler or he must have a not so healthy diet of American History X and other Nazis related stuff.
Our first real encounter was at a basket ball court in Toa payoh. I manage to single handledly win his team in football. A painful past he tries to forget. Guess i played a part in awakening his football genes. Now his skills has improved tremendously (All thanks to me!) and he is the proud captain of F.U. (Repeat after me and say it with gusto: F.... U.....!) It stands for Faith United for those who don't know.
All in all, I just want to say that i am truly happy to see the both of you get hitched, it is truly a joy to see that u guys seem so very happy together, and through it all, i know you are both a very good match together. May u guys make beautiful babies together too. Remember, it is not just the destination, it is the process and journey that really matters.
Thanks for being a part of my life.

Zombified

You sleep, wake up, go to work, sleep, wake up, go to work... have a few drinks with friends, sing k, deal with unreasonable clients at work btw these people are truly in the "Full of shit stupid idiot league." (Quote from Nic and Gin) sigh... i am off work, will not want to thnk about it.
What the heck, its like living in Monopoly, Its just going round n round n round. You earn a living, collect ur pay everytime u pass go, buy property, earn more... start a family, have children, ur children have children. Is there a point to all these? There must be a point right? I am trying to find out, so if there is someone out there who knows let me know.
If life continues this way, life is not worth living. Somebody save me from this zombified life! Now that my weekends are so without purpose, the only thing i can look forward on sunday is Bro Fred's Vision classes. Well there is also a Maxim Party to look forward to tomorrow, but that is partly work too. Wat's worst sat i am on duty for women's fair. Bloody no life.
Just trying hard to get use to my life now. Trying to take my mind off things i don't want to think about. Music helps to put me to sleep if it is the right music. For example, i am listening to damien rice now and i feel like killing myself and the next moment Michael Buble comes up with the next song on my playlist and i feel like singing n dancing to Dream little dream of me. Then again anyone who sees me dance might want to kill themselves too...
Sigh, i will end this entry with the Damien Rice song, do come to the women's fair at Marina Square Central Atrium, if anyone of you are free. Lots of freebies and fashion shows going on.
Blower's Daughter
And so it isJust like you said it would beLife goes easy on meMost of the timeAnd so it isThe shorter storyNo love, no gloryNo hero in her skyI can't take my eyes off of youAnd so it isJust like you said it should beWe'll both forget the breezeMost of the timeAnd so it isThe colder waterThe blower's daughterThe pupil in denialI can't take my eyes off of youDid I say that I loathe you?Did I say that I want toLeave it all behind?I can't take my mind off of youMy mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new...