Its officially over

My life officially ended today. It's worst than a physical death. It's death in its purest sense. My emotions are dead, my spirit is dying... It is sad to have all these truth in my head but i don't choose to believe them. I am a walking living corpse, the mind has died, my Spirit burning out and a physical body waiting to wither away.

What meaning does my life bear? Where does it lead to? I am turning my friends away one by one. I am turning my mother away. I have stopped almost all contact with my closer church friends. I have stopped getting involved in their lives by choice... I am sorry i have stopped being a friend.

My mind is not sound anymore. I will still function in the norm but thats it, norm. I don't know when i stopped caring... I don't know when i stopped loving... but i did.

Nothing matters to me anymore it seems. Not my job, my family, friends, church or even God... All these while i try to make it work but it finally fell apart.

I don't know if i will ever pick up the pieces again. I have lost all belief in myself and i pray that i have not lost belief in Him....

All i can say is I am sorry.